I pulled up to the house with my grandson to find a prancing goat communicating a “TADAH!” message. I closed my eyes and took a moment to breath.
While I was gone to pick up my grandson, his birthday gift was delivered by the Fed-ex man and put on the porch. Molly Marie, the ambitious goat, took the package, broke it open, then opened the puzzle box, took the puzzle pieces and sprinkled them from their plastic bag in a small area in front of the garage. The floor sized puzzle of the solar system, Finn’s latest obsession, looked like it came from the free box at a garage sale, as some of the pieces were wet, others mauled and some had missing chunks. Well happy birthday.
It’s frustrating sometimes with Molly, but I had an opportunity to practice forgiveness.
We’ve all been hurt, by family, friends, children, spouses and perhaps by furry friends, like Molly. Some of the hurts feel like pin pricks to the heart and other’s like knives to the back. Some hurts feel like sucker punches to the stomach and some like shackles around the ankles. Holding onto the hurt in defense doesn’t work. Sadness, anger, and resentment builds and becomes a heavy burden that we carry with us wherever we go. Holding onto pain ends up blocking us from love.
We’ve also hurt others, family, friends, children, spouses and perhaps some furry friends. We hurt with words, actions, absences and miscommunications. The pain we cause can also block us from love as we hold onto the guilt or shame of what we’ve done or said. This too, is a heavy energy to carry and also blocks us from love.
Without forgiveness, the energetic heaviness of pain and suffering become our constant companions. Our perspectives on life becomes negative. Holding resentment or shame snowballs and we can really go down a dark and lonely road, not able to be fully present with anyone, especially ourselves. The emotional pain that is carried can be expressed through physical pain and illness.
Why do this to ourselves when we can forgive?
I’m getting better at recognizing the patterns of behavior that hurt triggers within me. The negative talk in my head, blaming or shaming internally of others or myself, the attempts at isolating myself from people or the “keeping busy” to avoid connection.
Eventually, I’m guided to notice my behavior, my internal dialogue and this stuck, yuck energy. I don’t like the feeling or the compounded effects, like strained relationships in other areas of my life or repeated negative experiences.
In order to get relief from the agony and pain I begin to consider forgiving.
I say “consider” because frankly forgiving someone, especially myself, takes a bit of time and practice. But I know that taking the time to sit with and consider forgiving myself and others will slowly lead to lifting my energetic, emotional and physical being and return me to a state of balance and wellbeing. A state of love.
I get closer to forgiveness by praying.
First, I pray for help! Short and to the point. “HELP!”
I then, eventually, pray to see the situation differently, asking to see the beauty in the pain or the lesson. I also put myself or the other person in the light, seeing that we all are doing the best we can.
AND sometimes I just surrender saying, “I forgive you ___________ and I release you to Great Spirit.”
This is a practice for me so I repeat and repeat these exercises, sometimes several times daily, noticing the shift from energetic bondage of pain to peace.
I forgive because I want to see the light within myself and other’s. I forgive because the energy of love attracts more love while the energy of resentment and pain leads to more of the same. I forgive to be spiritually, emotionally and physically healthy and connected to the love that is all around. I forgive to free myself from pain. I forgive for my own wellbeing. I do it for me!
I forgave Molly, as she was just doing what goats do. I tenderly picked up the puzzle pieces, allowed them to dry and wiped each one. Finn received an early birthday present and we had fun figuring out if we would have all the pieces. We did. All the pieces fit together with a couple of artistic Molly holes and bends.
Here at Crow Moon Healing we make a practice of forgiving.
Up coming events at Crow Moon Healing Bed and Breakfast
Healing the Red Thread: An Ancestral Healing Workshop
The weekend of June 22-23, 2019
Crow Moon Healing • 6472 Breunig Road, rural Mazomanie, WI
The genetics passed down to us from our ancestors determine the color of our eyes and hair. We receive much more than just physical traits from our ancestors, though. We also receive their wounds and unfinished business. The circle will focus on gently shifting the heavy burden of inherited ancestral energy and bringing healing to the family line. The ability to journey and receive intuitive guidance during guided meditations is helpful.
In this experiential weekend workshop, you will:
• meet your family totem and ancestor allies to connect with their guidance and wisdom for healing
• reclaim gifts from the ancestral lineage
• clear family patterns and agreements that no longer serve you
• call back ancestral soul essence and power lost to wounds in the family line
To register or for more information, please contact Debra Morrill at 608-279-4319 or firstname.lastname@example.org.